Yesterday, I learnt that there are some things in life beyond our control and we just have to leave them be. We can get mad, scream, shout, bawl our eyes out but sometimes, when a situation has reached the point of FUBAR, it's best to let it go. I don't know if I was being emotional or overtly sensitive (which I know that I'm brilliant at), but I doubt I've ever had that feeling of loathe and regret in such overwhelming doses at any point in time. I thought I was over this stupid situation, but clearly, I thought wrong. (DAMN this emotionally dramatic side of me.)
I loathe, that something so trivial could blow up into one of such grossly epic proportions. I loathe, that one man could unravel the ties that bind, so very easily. I loathe, that people who were supposed to care, stood by and did naught. Beyond all, I loathe, the superficiality of the entire situation and everyone involved, including myself. Then I regret, for my oversight and poor judgment. I regret, for not making more of an effort. I regret, that I could not bring myself to forgive, to forget, nor to see past their faults. I regret, that things had to end up this way.
But we live and learn. So we brush off our knees, stand back up and we move on. Because the hurt will ease and the anger will fade, in time.
Remembering a quote that I once saw somewhere, "It's not giving up, it's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap." (And they don't need mine :) )
Today's swedish phrase, something that I strive to be able to do gracefully, some day.
Glömma och förlåta - Forgive and forget.
1 comment:
YAR! What took you so long to find that out dear one! :) I miss you tons anyhow! xoxo
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