A Good Snapshot

Stops A Moment From Running Away.

Because sometimes words just won't suffice ;) I'm giving fair warning for an image-heavy post! :D Some pictures from late September till October.

Digital Nights at Singapore Art Museum

 Adam Lambert's Glamnation Tour (With the very very fetching Tommy Ratliff)

Possibly the best part of October, 

first trip with Manda, diving at Perhentian, 

meeting up with Eric, meeting Paul, Charlotte, Ali and Gregor :)

And here's a last one capping off October, 

we've been trying to keep up the habit of swimming/cycling during the weekend. 

We caught pretty sunsets at the reservoir :) Didn't quite feel like Singapore, 

the calm and stillness of the lake was very much appreciated.

And then there was Halloween. 

Pretty boy in the corset was my highlight of the night. 

Although the picture did him no justice at all. He really was very pretty :p

Epic.

That's what.

It's been a good run the past couple of weeks. It's been fairly tiring and I find myself constantly short on time, never finding the extra minute/hour to do something that needs to be done - countless occasions that I have fallen asleep while skyping. Kris gets so annoyed and he says, "I don't know if you had a heart attack, fell off the earth or the worst, fell asleep." Hahah he's all love. Things are never perfect and with the good days also comes the horrid. But on the whole, I've been happy and I think that's what's important (:

So we had the company's Active Day yesterday and I was involved in 3 relay games and 3 rounds of Captain's Ball. Haha, I must say it was a lot more intense than I expected it to be! The other teams were really aggressive and fast. Anyway, it was good fun and felt good to exercise after such a long time.......... My body's aching like it's 80 years old today. Not cool. Just goes to show how out of shape I've become. Haha.

Anyway, here are the girls and me last weekend (:

I've known them for a decade now. God I feel olddd. Lol. We've had our share of fights and annoying moments but I think it's crucial to not lose sight of what's really important in your friendships with people. As we grow older, we learn to take things in our stride, to forgive and forget. I'm still learning how to do that gracefully, but the point here is to at least try doing it. Haha.

Today's swedish phrase is, brukade vara - which means used to be. Hoegaarden brukade vara min favoritöl - would mean Hoegaarden used to be my favourite beer. Heh (:

Of Friendships and it's Politics.

Yesterday, I learnt that there are some things in life beyond our control and we just have to leave them be. We can get mad, scream, shout, bawl our eyes out but sometimes, when a situation has reached the point of FUBAR, it's best to let it go. I don't know if I was being emotional or overtly sensitive (which I know that I'm brilliant at), but I doubt I've ever had that feeling of loathe and regret in such overwhelming doses at any point in time. I thought I was over this stupid situation, but clearly, I thought wrong. (DAMN this emotionally dramatic side of me.)

I loathe, that something so trivial could blow up into one of such grossly epic proportions. I loathe, that one man could unravel the ties that bind, so very easily. I loathe, that people who were supposed to care, stood by and did naught. Beyond all, I loathe, the superficiality of the entire situation and everyone involved, including myself. Then I regret, for my oversight and poor judgment. I regret, for not making more of an effort. I regret, that I could not bring myself to forgive, to forget, nor to see past their faults. I regret, that things had to end up this way.

But we live and learn. So we brush off our knees, stand back up and we move on. Because the hurt will ease and the anger will fade, in time.

Remembering a quote that I once saw somewhere, "It's not giving up, it's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap." (And they don't need mine :) )

Today's swedish phrase, something that I strive to be able to do gracefully, some day.

 Glömma och förlåta - Forgive and forget.

Kata-Noi

Hangover.

Truly awesome. Beautiful, beautiful. I only wish it were longer.

Swedish word before we go, solnedgång, which means sunset. Vacker solnedgång, beautiful sunset.

518 was E P I C.

An excerpt that someone sent (:

you are who you are for a reason

you're part of an intricate plan.

you're a precious and perfect unique design,

called god's special woman or man.

the parents you had were the ones he chose,

and no matter how you may feel,

they were custom-designed with his plan in mind,

they bear the master's seal.

no, that trauma you faced was not easy.

and god wept that it hurt you so.

but it allowed to shape your heart,

so that into his likeness you'd grow.

No particular/specific preaching but I thought it was beautiful (:

I've gone through a few rough patches in recent weeks, dealt more blows than I thought my heart could withstand. I got mad, I got jealous, I got so revengeful it made me scared. I teared, I cried, and I bawled because it felt like the hurt would never stop. Something else fell apart even before I could fix what had already broken.

But it did tamper off, slowly but surely, it did trickle away. I confided and I spilled to my heart's content. Verbal diarrhea he called it. He listened, he loved, and then he made me laugh. He said it'll be okay, and strangely, I believed. Then they listened, they gave me hugs, they thought it through with me, and then they made me laugh. They say, it'll be okay.

And it is okay. I have love, I have good people around me. So now after dusting my knees, I stand up a little straighter, my heart's a little sturdier and my resolve in getting there, a little stronger. I'll still get scared, I know I'll still cry. I did lose some things that I held dear, after all. But as I was once told, tears are like the safety valves of your heart, when the pressure gets too much, once you let it out, you'll laugh again, you will. 

I think I just had a verbal diarrhea again. Haha.

So many people stumble upon my blog because they googled, 'Give crowns and pounds and guineas but not your heart away'. Lol, what a strange phrase to google! Heh!

Today's Swedish word is, styrka. Which means, strength (: