so it's currently 2:36am. i should be really tired but i'm not quite ready for bed yet. it feels pretty unreal still, that i'm gonna be leaving for home later tonight. it's a pity to have to go when i'm just starting to get used to the new friends, the weather's turning nice and i can already recognize many of the streets.
i cannot begin to describe how much i've learnt from this festival. and i shall not attempt at this moment when my brain has been much addled by alcohol. haha. but despite all the knowledge that i've come to gain and the great experience that i've had, i feel an awful disappointment at something that has yet to be done.
i wish i had the courage to say something. but everyone tells me, you've done enough. and even though i've constantly told myself that it was never gonna happen, i think at the back of my mind, i was always wishing and praying fervently for a... surprise. miracle. haha. but i suppose there are many sayings that go along the line of wishes being for fools. so, even though i really really don't want to, i have to keep my promise to myself. that since this fell through, when i leave norway tomorrow, i leave this behind once and for all as well. in scotty's words, 'good riddance.'
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